the thing is – i just moved – and am feeling really exhausted by the whole process of putting everything i own into boxes and having to deal with the shit under your bed that you put there so that you dont have to deal with it – so here is my top five most annoying things about moving -

1 – PACKING YOUR LIFE UP – i dont want to be reminded of the garbage of life – i really dont

2 – the change of address – bills – important things stuff – dont even get me started

3 – the mess – jesus how did i live with all this dust in my life

4 – the stuff you need to buy again and again – trash cans?  plungers? ugh

5 – putting furniture together – can’t we just buy new ones that are already together and delivered to the spot i want them in?

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and because i am trying this positivity thing – here is my top five great things about moving – because the process sucks but the end result is in fact awesome

1 – you actually get to do a good clean and purge and at the end of the day that feels great

2 – new stuff is kind of cool – i secretly like shopping for the house

3 – a chance to reorganize your life – move your furniture and get out of that old rut you were in is really good for the soul!

4 – i have two kitties now – i know terence is sad but its better than reality tv

5 – ERIC is here ALL THE TIME – nothing like nesting – its melting my little heart

i am tough!

and yes i wear a helmet!

2 – this city smells fucking awful – seriously – how on earth did i not notice how bad it was when i lived here before

3 – new yorkers are in love with themselves – this is pretty obvious but hilarious to realize once again

4 – new yorkers LOVE to fight – and fight they will – they YELL and PUNCH and PUSH and go fucking crazy at the drop of a dime – I saw two OLD OLD men with grey hair get in a fist fight around the corner from my house – i kind of secretly love this one – i totally fight with people all the time and definitely punched the window of an SUV that almost ran me over the other than and proceeded to have a screaming match with him for 5 minutes – AWESOME

5 – this city is filled with gorgeous people – period

customer time….gtg

at any rate – i sit here in front of my computer – stressed out and messy over life things – like taxes bills and that sort of thing – and i am not looking at my delicious creamy fresh cup of coffee – nope – i look now at tea – plain old tea – and i look at this tea longingly to wake me up and to provide me with the comfort and stability that coffee provides – but also – to regulate my jitters – to not stress me out or fuck with my brain – i wonder if its capable – i wonder if coffee will notice i have not indulged this morning – i wonder if coffee is mad

my name is diana and i have a coffee problem -

1 – read kurt vonnegut all day

2 – read blogs

3 – paint my nails

4 – sew new clothes for myself -

5 – watch bad 80’s movies with people named cory in them

6 – take a bubble bath

7 – make homemade pizza

8 – listen to LOUD music and dance

9 – paint things

10 – make mix cd’s for all my friends

but instead i am going to work

I can’t even deal with what a bad emailer i have been – like really really bad – that is SO NOT LIKE ME -

at any rate – i must accept these things – and fill you all in on the info that is relevant while i am sitting at my computer -

1 – i live in a house of 10 other people – yes there are 11 of us – and its awesome – three apartments – and all of them are incredible people that i LOVE – we make music videos and watch alot of lword – yes its true i got into lword – but its easy to suck you in -

2 – i work at Vosge Haut Chocolat and i eat ALOT of chocolate – like pretty serously amazing amounts – and its awesome – i also work with the mayor and julia martin – which is pretty stupendous – i couldnt have asked for a more reassuring job when i am in transition – chocolate makes me feel better -

3 – me and eric finally live in the same place and its awesome – we sleep in and dont have to worry about going back and forth to buffalo – he meets me in soho all the time and we hang out and watch twin peaks and giggle alot – he is a gem and its been incredible to be with him all the time -

4 – probably the biggest change has been not being a student or teaching or affiliated with a university in any way – the leave of absence is working out in a BIG way – all i think about while i am working at vosges is how fucking burnt out i was with school – and how good it will feel to go back well rested – i need to stop treating it like a rat race and start treating it like what it actually is – something i enjoy doing. {you’ll notice i used a period there – that means business} we shall see what else comes from this break – time will tell

so thats it – my life in brooklyn is a whole other ballgame now – welcome to the show

hugs and kisses from milwaukee

to the person who has electrified my life

to the best one

happy birthday